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where did all the years go? weird enough i still remember first day of high school… HAHA and seeing people’s faces and getting lost in the atrium and wow look at me now! going to grad practice tomorrow! WHOOO well im not excited about practice cuz i’ll have swollen eyes and will fall asleep half the time but im excited to leave! hehe. it feels like i’m leaving people behind when in reality i’m leaving my high school self back. crazy. whut. HAHA. and now i actually have to be responsible for my own self. crajee. haha. so much has happened senior year and especially this semester so crazy HAHA i like how everything turned out except one thing but it can’t be helped well just cuz i like the way things are right now. met so many different people. and this last year i guess i can say i was able to be my true self and didn’t care when people judged me cuz guess whut. I WON’T SEE YOU ANYMORE. SOOOO LONG~ hehe. im gonna cry during graduation. just watch me. i just will. like at chorus banquet and concert. i’ll see someone cry and BAM there goes my tear sac. HAHA anyways good night for now! 8)

내눈엔. 그냥 내 눈엔. 니가 완벽하게 보인다. 그냥 뭐랄까… 널 닮고 싶다고 해야하나? 그래 그게 좋네 ㅋㅋㅋ 진짜 처음부터 끝까지 똑같고, 똑같았고. 그거때문에 결국 두달이 지나도 ㅋㅋㅋ 뭐… 인젠 욕심으로 밖에 않보이네 ㅋㅋ 넌 무서워서 도망갔으니. 그 선을 내가 선명하게 그엇으면 우린 아직도 괜찮았겠지? ㅋㅋㅋ 그만두자.. 나도 지친다 ㅋㅋㅋ 결국 나 혼자만의 생각. 바램밖에 되지않으니깐./p>

okay… uhm reread what i wrote under + sign and that absolutely made NO sense.. .HAHAHA anyways.. time to work on senior letters! and omg my mom is giving me unnecessary stress its driving me crazy. LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. -_- i really tried lowering the number of senior letters and now stands at 9. HAHA. oh man. ooooh man. hahahaha well we shall see if i will actually write all 9. AND JOSH YOU ARE THE MAN. so proud :’) sigh. have fun~~~~~ 8).

Today was goooood. hahaha it rained a ton but we still had fun in the end hehehehehe 8) and baccalaureate was awesome! well better than i thought hahahaha i had the urge to use the bathroom half the time but hey. tis all good. HAHA. and man im  just SO SO SO glad yesterday and today happened! hehehe. i really. reaaaaaaaaaaaaally thought i would never see you smile again but im just glad i got to see that yesterday and today. haha like i realized today that all the looks that you gave me were actually very……………… pleasing(?!) hahahahah like you’re eyes had so much emotion behind it before and after we talked and everything ended i couldn’t see that again and instead saw like cold stares but im wrong fool. I WIN. HAHA

• seriously so so so happy i can go to six flags nowwwww whooo just gotta clarify errythang. hehe
• PARTY IN THE BACK SEAT. IM SO READY HAHAHAHA
• anyways. ahem.
• dang im kinda disappointed… haha you spelled my name wrong in the yearbook when it was clearly stated correctly right above where you wrote… haaaaaaaaa. NEXT.
• seriously had a blessed year.
• i need you out of my life to be honest hahaha like i cringe each time i see you and hear your name… kinda mean but yeah :/
• sikeeeeeeeeee i opened it the day you gave it to me and got everything figured out HAHA I TOLD YOU.
• seriously gonna suffer on sunday but im so excited. playing piano after going to six flags with ma fraaands heheehe im excited. idk why HAHAHAHA i just am 8)

This year. I lived through so many what ifs and if onlys. Like this was the first year i went to ten diffetent people asking for their opinions and help. I finally was able to see your true self and my trueself. Through you in a short period of time made me realize how thirsty i was for God and His love and His presence. Through my friends who stayed with me for the past four years of my life i was able to see how blessed i was and how thankful i should be of them. Everything seems so bittersweet cuz it feels like im leaving everything… idk gfjekrbfhf i dont even know what im saying at this point. HAHAHA

엄마는 항상 제발 너무 똑바로만보지말고
옆에주변사람들도 돌보고
내게 중요한사람들도 좀 책겨주라고햇다
진짜.. 이번학기는… 내가 내소중한사람들한테
너무소홀히 대햇고
다 내 잘못이고.
솔직히 난 드럽게 못됫지만
옆을 지켜주는 애들보면…
음. 난그렇게 성격이드럽진 않구나하고
애들이 나를 더 좋은사람으로 만들어주는거같구…
아 머리아퍼…
니놈이란 자식때문에…. 큐ㅠㅠ
됏다됏어 나도 이젠 지칠때로 지쳣으니.